Sooner or later

I guess now I know how to value everything around me and not to take them for granted.

Sooner or later, like it or not, want it or not, some people will walk out of your life, letting the new ones come. It's not the replacement that hurts, it's the feeling that those people will not stay with you for a certain length of time. The moments, well as the time goes by, will fade. Once again, like it or not, it is happening.

I hate this moment of goodbye. Though wise men said there sure is the 'good' in goodbye. And I know this isn't a forever-goodbye, but still..the thoughts of us not gonna see each other in a long time are sort of killing me. Some of my friends might feel the same way, huh, that's just the way life goes :) things don't remain the same, even our plan can sometimes be screwed up.

Or maybe it is not. Maybe God is erasing the bad part of our life scenario and writing a new one for us! Yay? We can't really see where we're heading right now, we can only see the ground beneath our feet. That--to be very honest--sucks sometimes. But I believe that if God wants us to live this way, to be separated for..uh..unknown period of time, then He sure is preparing us for a brighter plan. No kidding.

But I'm gonna miss you.
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Bad Day (Well, sort of)

From what I typed above you already have the idea that this day is not one of the days I will remember (⌣́_⌣̀)

It started with scary stories I've heard from my friend about an exhibitionist (a person who exhibits his genital to others in public places) around our uni. You read right, he's around our university walking freely, probably without underwear, and hunting for poor girls! Surely, this area is a place where you can find probably dozens of exhibitionists masked as pedestrians or bikers.

Just a tip: If one day you accidentally meet an exhibitionist showing off his d*ck in front of you, don't be surprised, don't freak out, just keep calm and walk away from him. He wants such startled responses to get the pleasures. You don't want to give him the pleasure he's seeking, do you?

Later on, I've witnessed another crazy thing which is not a good topic to share. How could this day turn out to be so bad?

To make it worse, I had a quarrel with a seller who accused me for things I didn't do. Geez.. That was, of course, an attack cos I didn't do anything wrong. I didn't even think of doing her wrong :'( and I've promised I would never buy things from her again. That really happened when she deleted me from her contact list. I wanted to tell her, it was not about the money, it was about you accusing me blindly! Apa sih arti duit 95rb kalo ribut sampai gini?

*sighs*

I've been so mad and pissed off this day. I guess it's time to just lay down and relax.

Good night! :)
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Sweet moments ♥

Pulang dari Pacet dgn perasaan yg senang dan sedih sekaligus :)

So I went to Pacet 3 days ago and stayed there with my friends. I loved and enjoyed and cherished every moments I spent there! :) seeing my friends with quite a different perspective made me gain more lessons to learn.

Mulai dari ngobrol ttg skripsi di bus dengan angkitong; main games & outbound yg unexpectedly FUN and enjoyable; makan terus-menerus; beseran; refleksi berkali-kali; jalan malam (I didn't like this part); ngakak2 ngetawain teman2 sendiri; sampai nangis2 bombay sambil peluk2an.. :D

The people we see everyday don't always look the same. They could let go of their 'everyday' mask and show you a totally different side. Just like what we witnessed at Pacet.

"Challenge Accepted!"

Kitchen. Eww. I would define it as a part of the entire house I rarely step my feet into. I didn't cook (not even the simplest dish) until I went to college. Until I started to think about "what kind of wife would I be if I don't cook?" This was a serious thought, because I didn't even cook for myself, why would I want to cook for anyone else? No kidding. So the conversation went like this between me and Sandy.

Me: "What do you wanna have for dinner? Spaghetti or...string beans cooked with meat?"

Sandy: "Spaghetti for sure."

Me: *a little bit shocked*

Sandy: "You're going to cook?" *shocked as well*

Me: "Spaghetti...challenge accepted!"

Do I sound like Barney Stinson? Haha. What up? I love that guy.

It wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be. Not to mention, I did freak out when the sauce was too orange-ish. Here's the spaghetti:

I know it doesn't look promising, but he liked it (or at least he pretended to)! He even named it "spaghetti bulatnice" instead of bolognaise. Good start ;) but I didn't really like the way this spaghetti bulatnice tasted, I prefer going to an italian resto and get some real spaghetti. I hope there's a 'good cook' sort of blood running through my veins cos my mom and both my grandmothers are good cooks. I know some women just weren't born to cook, and maybe I can be one of them too, but I guess simple dishes won't kill. It's worth the shot. Gotta know how it feels like to cook. This wasn't my first time, I have cooked several simple dishes before. Pretty good for a beginner or a novice like me :)

By the way, MERRY CHRISTMAS and may you have a HAPPY NEW YEAR ahead! :D

What are you buying again?

I am so through with seeing all these claimed-to-be the best beauty products in the online market. I tell you what, they guarantee nothing but the finest result with the cheapest and the most affordable price. Does it make sense to you? Cos it would take me a thousand years to believe the ads. You can easily find these products in a blink of an eye, hundreds of online shops are offering the best deals. And well, it IS intriguing!

Starts with the Chinese-made slimming pills. Does any of you (who stumbled on this blog and reading this) ever try one of those slimming pills offered online? They claim it can reduce your body fat by increasing your metabolism rate or whatsoever the ad is saying, but is it true? One of my friend's friend tried it and it worked like magic. I'm telling you, she lost like 20 pounds in one month. UH-MAY-ZING! She lost her appetite and felt dehydrated all the time though she could get rid those 20 pounds off of her. I don't think it's healthy. Even FDA itself has warned the public to be aware of this slimming products. It is scam. If this so-called healthy slimming pill really worked without ANY negative side effect, all doctors would recommend it and NO ONE would suffer from obesity now. Think about it.

The whitening beauty products. I even found lulur banci. Seriously, WHAT IS THAT? :O the kojic soap, glutathione based products, etc. So, fyi, all soaps with kojic acid is supposed to be quite expensive, because using kojic acid as a basic ingredient would cost $$$. If the soap contains less than 1% kojic acid, would it whiten your skin? I'm afraid it wouldn't. So if you buy a kojic soap or whatever whitening product with kojic acid with cheap price and your skin is getting fairer, beware. It might be hydroquinone (banned as a potential carcinogen) or mercury. PLUS, consuming glutathione orally won't make your skin fairer because it doesn't go directly to your blood vessels! (Yes, I did a little research on this) Conclusion: Cheap whitening pills are scams. If those products are real and safe, all famous brands like SK-II or Estee Lauder will not be on the market today.

What else? You can mention thousands of products and the list is still going on and on. Well, all women want to beautify themselves and it's normal (or natural? :p) but be wise in selecting the products you want to use :)
I am sort of living on a tight budget right now, so I become very picky when it comes to beauty products. I think consuming vitamin C and vitamin E is way better than buying some scammy products online, though it might be a little more pricey and the result is not as instant as lulur banci or whatever it is ;)
And a little promotion for you, I used to have this lips discoloration aka brownish lips. Don't you hate it? Then I saw a product online which claims to be the number one lips lightening essence: Dodora Youthful Pink. Sounds familiar, huh? It can make your nipple pinkish too. In a relatively short time. Instant results rock, right? A big N to the O. My friend tried it once and she said it didn't even change a thing.
Luckily I didn't buy it and switched to another lip balm and I'm satisfied :) my lips are sort of soft and pinky right now :D it's a color reviver balm and it works just great for me. PLUS, it is safe! :D
Do you have this annoying brownish lips too? You might want to try this:

It's Dior Addict Lip Glow Color Reviver from Christian Dior

So, be wise, ladies. Don't waste your time and money trying the products you're not even sure where they come from. Think before you buy things. Or maybe you should do a little research before you click 'Buy' ;)

Celebrating the 21st birthday

I turned 21 yesterday. Yay! My friends said things like: "now you can go clubbing" "so you can buy porn and it's legal" "have some beers!"
Haha good to know that I'm officially legal.

Well, I got a lot of surprises on my birthday. Four cakes were more than enough for me :p makaci ceman-ceman cemuah.. :* I will share some photos with my lovely friends later ;) fact is, I am so happy.

The celebration continued at Resto Nine, one fine restaurant in Surabaya. Only me and Sandy, more like an usual date, sorry for not inviting all of you guys :p Resto Nine was quite a cozy place to dine and it wasn't too expensive, at least it is still affordable ;) Too bad I didn't take many photos of the Resto, but I did take photos of the food we ordered:


This one is salmon fillet, complete with mashed potato and salad. Tasted good! The mashed potato was so soft it just melted right on your tongue, but idk, it was milky and i dont like milk! :(


Sandy chose Indonesian food which was as delicious as my salmon: sop buntut! :D

Everything was sort of perfect until Sandy made everything perfectly perfect with this little surprise: cake & roses :)


Dapur Coklat surely knows how to make good cakes! The chocolate cake is heavenly delicious :D and the red roses..love it!

THANKS A BUNCH TO ALL OF YOU WHO CELEBRATED MY 21st BIRTHDAY! *hugs and kisses*
May God bless you all abundantly.

OH, this is RANDOM, but Christmas is near and I never decorated a Christmas tree in 21 years of my life, just so you know. That's why I'm so in love love love love with my new Christmas tree! It's adorable and I decorated it myself (finally!) :D


My plain Christmas tree with its decorations! :) my favorite is the green photo frame. It's cute and glittery :D and the Christmas lights makes my tree even better.


Do you love it? :) Thanks to Sandy who bought me all these things. I cannot say how much I feel thankful for your thoughtfulness :) my first Christmas tree in 21 years, lol, and it's pretty XD

She didn't miss the call

Tadi sore dengar kabar kalo Ibu Lim Hui Ming meninggal dunia. Was shocked krn 2 minggu lalu sy dan tmn2 sempat datang ke rmhnya utk..well, membesuk.. Who knew (back then) she had only two weeks left? :(

Just so you guys know..
Nama Ibu Lim Hui Ming selalu ada di warta gereja utk didoakan. Since 2008, wkt sy msh newbie dan cupu a.k.a mahasiswa baru, nama beliau sdh ada di warta. Dan menurut teman2 di gereja, beliau memang sdh sakit dlm wkt yg cukup lama. Sakitnya bukan sakit biasa.

Jadi, Ibu Lim Hui Ming ini dulu sempat terkena kanker otak (dan sembuh!) tp after a few times later, dia jd tdk sadarkan diri. Even breathing was too difficult to do :( waktu sy ke rumahnya 2 minggu lalu, ada banyak tabung yg tingginya hampir sama dgn sy (tapi lebarnya beda--sy lebih lebar). I was like, "sure this house uses a lot of LPGs!" And it turned out I was all wrong. Tabung2nya itu ternyata berisi oksigen (O2) yg kemudian disambungkan di selang di tubuh beliau agar beliau bisa bernafas & tetap hidup. Beliau hanya berbaring di tempat tidur for years dengan selang di tubuhnya dan suplai oksigen.

She didn't respond well krn idk, mgkn otaknya sdh tdk mampu memerintah tubuhnya. She just blinked or did this teeeeny tiny muscle movement you could barely feel when you touched her. What surprised us (waktu membesuk) was she cried after we prayed.. She understood.

Mungkin ini mmg saatnya Tuhan memanggil beliau kembali ke sorga. She didn't miss the call. One thing for sure, she is in a better place now. My deepest condolences go out to Ibu Lim Hui Ming's family members..
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The Bittersweet of Life (Goodbye, Julia)

I went out on an amazing date tonight. Well, not really ‘amazing’, but we—me and my boy—quite enjoyed it. Tasty dinner and entertaining Smurfs movie.

When I got home (my second home aka the boarding house), I did rituals as usual. Put my bag off, did some stretching, changed clothes, ended up sitting (or probably half-lying) on my bed, and checked my fone. Yes, it’s like I always check my fone every ten minutes. What surprised me was that there were so many grieving BBM status updates. And it all went to one name: JULIA RASYID.

Sort of shocked.

Tried to recall some memories.

And the pieces of those memories hit me right to the center of my brain!

JULIA RASYID!!

For 1/10 second I couldn’t believe who I thought she was. I really hoped Julia Rasyid wasn’t someone I know. Truth is, I did know her.

I bbmed one of my friends and asked her. I pretended I didn’t know who Julia was, because I really hoped that the JULIA they were grieving for wasn’t the JULIA I know, “Who’s this Julia you are all talking about?”

“Julia Rasyid, class of 2009, you wouldn’t believe this. But she’s gone. She got this infection on her lungs and she couldn’t make it after a comma.”

For crying out loud. She was so cheerful that you wouldn’t believe she got a deadly disease! I’ve heard that she frequently checked herself in the hospital, but I didn’t know it was THAT bad. I am so sorry to hear this.

One person died, another person celebrated her birthday. Happy birthday my friend, Hilda. She’s 21 now, yes, exactly on the day Julia died. God surely had some big plans for each life. When I think about her death and how I can still breathe and type all these craps, I sort of reevaluate my life. How many times have I said I would live my life to the fullest? Her chances just stopped now and mine are still (probably) coming. Seeing with my human perspective, I could have said: how lucky I am! But Jesus, I would rather say, You’re amazing and Your plans are WAY WAY WAY bigger than mine, but seriously, why did You take her life? She didn’t even know You (yet?). Is she predestined to..well, forget it.

If Jesus took her life just before she knew Him, He is probably doing something better for others’ life. Yes, I’m sure. He’s the Almighty and Righteous God and He never does something wrong, never will!

I don’t know if I could see you again, my dear friend Julia. Though I really wish I would see you again someday, but definitely not in an uncomfortable place. Maybe we can hang out and have some good coffee to sip from our cups. We could have a little chat about how great life would be with Jesus on our side. Maybe God will give you a break and reincarnate you again (which is kinda fairy-tale-ish). Either way, I am so glad I knew you back then. One cheerful and cute girl. This is heartbreaking, but God must have done it right.

Good night, Julia. And sleep tight there, wherever you are now.

Got this nice thing from a website:

Kita suatu saat, cepat atau lambat, akan diperhadapkan pa­da kenyataan ini (kematian)—atau mungkin sekarang kita tengah mengha­dapi­nya, bahwa hidup kita di dunia tidak akan lama lagi. Dalam situasi demikian, marilah kita berpegang pada iman dan pengharapan kita di dalam Kristus, sehingga kita dapat menghadapinya dengan tetap tenang, tidak kehilangan sukacita. Kita dapat menyongsong saat-saat kematian yang mendekat dengan hati lapang dan kepala tegak.

DI DALAM KRISTUS KITA HADAPI KEMATIAN DENGAN SENYUM

Karena bagiku hidup adalah Kristus dan mati adalah keuntungan. Filipi 1:21

When I die, I know where I will go: straight to the place where You reside, my Lord.

The Boy All the GOOD GIRLS WANT!

who's that boy?

this is my answer:

*drums drumming*

CAMERON MITCHELL!!

cute, huh? :) yes, he's cute and he's the boy we've been wanting for so long! for those who love the Glee Project must have known this amazing boy. he has that voice that could melt you right away, it is awesome! i've seen an episode of this Glee Project where Cameron was in it and he is the only boy who could actually make me think: "AWW UH-MAY-ZING!" yay, i hope he read this and give me some credit for promoting him. nah, just kidding.

so why do i think that he is the boy all the good girls want?

Cameron has just filled a page on E! News because he has walked away from that famous Glee Project. WHY? that is a good question.

on this 'sexuality week', all the contenders have to show their sexuality and act with such passion. they made the video of Katy Perry's Teenage Dream which really--REALLY--reflects the sparks of sexuality. most of the contestants did their parts really good, except Cameron. he was struggling to act sensually. personally, i think it's cute. because most boys would find acting sexually as a piece of cake, but Cameron.. he couldn't even think about exposing his sex appeal. isn't that really something? he was asked to kiss a girl (i forgot her name, but i guess it was Hannah) for the Teenage Dream video clip and he refused. kissing a girl in front of the public (moreover, it was not his girlfriend) wasn't doable for him. since he felt the exposing-sexuality pressure was too much for him, he chose to exit the competition, well perhaps because he knew that there would be more of sexuality if he continued this Glee Project. how could he choose quitting over the concert tour, tv show, and recording contract? it was a great opportunity to show the gift he has to the whole world!

what he said stunned me:

"i've been thinking about it and i think i'm ready to go. it feels right."

yes, quitting the competition felt right for him.

the barrier or the parameter that strained him from stepping further in this Glee Project is that he was raised in a Christian family and that he knew that exposing sexuality or whatsoever is not necessarily approved. salute, Cameron! there are only a few other boys out there who could stand against what this world offers :) and i do admire his bravery to stay in his righteousness.

as he walked out the door, he said: "if this door closes, another door opens."

see? isn't he the boy we've been wanting to have? isn't he the boy this world desperately needs? :)

come on, boys. learn something from this contender, Cameron Mitchell! ;)

The So-Called Broken Road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago, hoping I would find true love along the broken road. But I got lost a time or two, wiped my brow, and kept pushing through. I couldn't see how every sign pointing straight to you. Every long lost dream led me to where you are. Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars, pointing me on my way into your loving arms. This much I know is true.. that God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you.

Do you know the meaning behind those words? :)

I remember when I started to fall in love many years ago and everything was SO freaking right. My girls would exactly know what kind of lovebug that bit me back then. I was around 15, still a kid and that's why when somebody told me he loved me, I was gonna believe him. Ah, teenagers. Let's say my relationship went good with all those roller-coaster-feelings a teenager might have. It did go well until one day--THAT DAY--came. That day what? Breaking up! Boys Like Girls said it all: 'the first one is the worst one when it comes to a broken heart.'

It was.. *let me think* devastating? Well, could be.

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday, but I realized some bigger dreams of mine. Actually, God made me realized that I have so many other good things to pursue for my future.

Back to that awesome song (Bless the Broken Road).

I consider that devastating experience as a part of the broken road I'm on. We never know what God is up to with our lives. I thought it was right and perfect, but He could have thought it was one of my worst relationships. What can I say? :)

It's not always about love or relationships. It's about the lives we lead.

Maybe you think you're walking on a broken road, got lost a time or two.. or maybe three times.. in a row! But once again, it is the road that God let you walk on so don't worry. He blessed that broken road which could lead you to the things you need / people you might end up falling in love with ♥

Maybe things don't go as you plan right now or you could barely see where this is going or you simply can't relate to anything that's happening right now. Do you think God is sleeping that He can't show you the way? He is prolly doing His divine job by blessing you with those things ♥

By the way, that song always soothes me and helps me not to cry over my past because Ripley's believe it or not.. He--who broke my heart--was made as a northern star to point me on my way to the man God has made for me (LOL). Seriously. God is awesome though He works in a way we can't possibly understand.

No matter how broken the road you're walking on, how many times you got lost, remember that ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD TO THOSE WHO LOVE GOD, to those who are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28).

Don't ever doubt Him because He's blessing the broken road that leads you to ... (fill the blanks with good things) :)